Life has certainly dealt you some hard blows. Whatever happened to their offer of sending over a couple of Ts? Wasn't that you? Cuz if it's conversion disorder, I don't see any way out of it except therapy. That's what I'm dealing with with my hoarding. I have read everything available on the subject and that's the bottom line. I make small bits of progress and try not to be surprised every 6 months when the apartment maintenance people come in to convert the heating-air conditioning unit. Thank you for sharing how your condition progressed. I know I would be much worse off if my T didn't force me to leave the house to see him.