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Not too sure why i am here right at the moment...just felt the need to write is all i suppose...but anywhoo...i am not doing the best...well...acutually i am sinking at a rapid rate and figured that this may be a good thing for me to do is see if others are having similar experiences...i feel as though i am out of control...currently at this time...i feel as though i need to cry...but i am not able to...yet...my body finds a way to work around that...and i guess since its been so long since i have felt this way...or really even felt at all i am not sure exactly how to handle this...all the switching is really draining my mind and body...badly...and to make matters worse...since i live with my mom...unfortunately she gets the brunt of this wreckage...and believe me...she so doesnt deserve that in the least...i dont know what to do anymore...i used to...and lately its like the light is completely off...and i just feel so down...and not sure what to do anymore...i am sorry...i dont know what else to do...none of me does...this is too much for me to handle...and when i say me...i say all of me...i dont know what to do anymore...i am having a really difficult time...especially living with all of me...and i dont understand how my mom can live with me...i am not able to live with me...especially not for much longer...not like this...well...i am soo sorry if this is triggering...i will put a trigger sign on this...just in case...gotta go...sorry...
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