(((((((((((Jon)))))))))))) I am so sorry. You are definately not alone. Please come here for support and friendship. We're here for you and for each other.

In a way, I know how you're feeling. The very few times I've let my walls down, I've been hurt badly, and every time, the wall comes back - stronger then before. Most nights, I cry myself to sleep.

Since coming here, I've found repreave from the lonliness and hurt. In fact, I've found acceptance and dare I say, friendship. I hope you feel the same.

Hugs, Jon, and remember - we're here for you.