Purple I think there's a purpose to depression. Of course we have bp and take it to extreme and get sick. But realistically looking at world and personal problems can logically be sad sometimes. We'd be really crazy to not feel sad about it. But also logically bp'ers have high IQ's, creativity, and fast firing neurons when we are not depressed imho. So of course you want some hypo back. And it's overdue for you, you've been depressed a long time now. I think I'd like to reassure you that another hypo will come. That's part of the cycle right? I'm gratefully having what might be some hypo right now and hot damn I sure like it. Finally on my game feels so good. Have you ever looked at the demotivater website, it's so cynically hilarious I think you'd like it. Ya know.. You could try to keep yourself up all night to trick your body into cycling. My pdoc told me that was an old time thing they used to do in hospitals to treat bp depression. She wasn't recommending it or not, just sharing what she said.

My favorite "demotivater quote" is:
The sole purpose of your life may be to only serve as a warning to others.

Hah. I love that. I should post it on FB.