Got a phone call from my boss, asking me to drive in the winter weather. and since then anxiety has been high. which leads to me wanting pain. wanting something to end the feelings. Tonight is not going to be easy, just like this afternoon....

I was driving and then all of a sudden I had to break really quick, felt like I wasn't all there. I don't know what's going on, but I don't like it. Don't know what exactly to do.