I'm sorry you lost your job. Been there. Been out of work going on a year now. Parents helping me out, feel sick every time I think about that. My childhood was similar with the ADD, parents not believing, misdiagnosis, and the off and on meds. Thing is when I am off meds my mind and body feel so pure and clean but my mood swings are apparent and my black and white thinking is at an all time high. I just started on meds again, I hate it, I feel so weird, all the side effects, not pure at all, fuzzy and gross instead. Some days it makes the chores easier, some days not. I'm sorry everything is so hard for you right now, (us), I know what you mean about being cursed from the moment we are born. Just try taking it one day a time. I hear you.