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manicminer · Jan 13, 2013, 05:52 AM

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Originally Posted by Innerzone

You originally posed a question asking whether symptoms have interrupted/interfered in the dynamic. Do you feel like yours have? Mine haven't, but it's only been a short time. Kind of nervous about the prospect. Thought especially about it early on as moving in came only weeks after my worst month ever. But I've been struck with a real contentedness here and been really stable, so.... hopefully that will last. It's always a fear though. History hasn't been pretty that way and I dread people (especially those that haven't before!) seeing me like that -- Well, mixed or highly agitated anyway. I don't want to give them second thoughts or be seen differently, negatively, you know? That's the main thing. But you've been there for a couple of years. How has that part been? (Only if you want to say, of course.)

Its been a roller coaster really. I did very well when I first moved in. But last October I was working 4 on, 4 off to the tune of 70-80 hours in four days, sleeping little and either living at the bar or travelling to my old college town to party it up with my active fraternity brothers on my 4 days off. Heavy into the booze, with no sleep, money troubles and a lot of back pain, I was at nearly the same level of unstability that I was before I was hospitalized. This led to troubles at home (leaving messes, appliances on, doors open all night, disappearing for days, not helping with anything bc drunk all the time. When questioned, a blamed it on the disorder or the medication and because he did not believe in my dx or taking of meds, he got absolutely furious with me and threatened to kick me out if my behavior did not improve. Well I got the message from both him and my new p-doc that made it clear he did not approve of the way I was managing the disorder, and my behavior did improve. We have been doing very well lately, especially through hunting season when we got to spend a lot more quality time together.

And I have been checking in lately, because the calls of we were just wondering where you were and the constant reminder that they're worried about me annoys the crap out of me. Not sure why, just hate people wasting their time worrying about what I'm doing. I know they mean well though...