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Old Jan 13, 2013, 10:18 AM
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Originally Posted by malah View Post
I think split personality or dissociative disorder can exist without the amnesia or names. For example I think a person can have different personalities in a dissociative state without separation from the main personality or amnesia. So they dont become Jane, Lisa or Jessie but remain as Sandra but have the sub personalities of the above (example). Sandra also doesnt have amnesia but is usually unaware that she is exhibiting sub personalities and thinks its aspects of herself. Does this make sense? I think it does. Im interested in mental health research, and Im working on my brain fog, but its a way of coping, not a good way, but the only option. I wouldnt wish this on anyone but I feel very uspet and annoyed at some "people" who dont care and I think they have no humanity.
mala
I have been diagnosed with DID. After many years of trying to figure out what was going on in my head I suspected DID. I have episodes of amnesia where I will loose a day or part of a day. I have never, as far as I know, gone by another name. My parts/alters did not have names, I identified them by their emotions or the memory they held. I have a lot of co consiousness. It's good but it also caused me to think I was insame because I could see me doing something I would never do. When I switch in the world no one can tell. It is subtle. When I switch at home alone or in session it is noticeable. It almost feels like a relief when I can switch and be who ever wants to talk without always trying to repeat what is being said in my head. DID is more complicated than I thought. I just learned that I am still dissociating like always. I thought that once I realized and started working with my alters that my dissociating to deal with issues would at least be noticeable to me. It's not. I have done it for so long I almost don't know who I would be if I didn't. I am in therapy because it wasn't working for me anymore. It was effecting my physical health and causing problems on my job. I realized that what I want in my life is to feel. And that is done by many of us but not by me. I almost have a longing to be integrated and feel all of my life. The good and the bad. I want to know I am alive.