good morning, Dark Soldier....we tell ourselves or others tell us things like "at least you're not living in Africa" or "it could be much worse" but it misses the point because this has no meaning if we are depressed. we have to work on getting well before we can appreciate what it means. don't be hard so hard on yourself. If you need to laugh at something childish, do it! it will help. also, you are not dumb. if you can read, if you can think and post messages you are not dumb. if you are concerned about not knowing anything, can you visit the library? you can find all kinds of interesting stuff there, even if you have to get books for beginners which is what I do sometimes if I want to learn something new. learning anything new and working with your hands is healing to your brain. it does take time but don't give up and don't be so hard on yourself, we value you here