I seem to be a social misfit. I can go places when I have a reason to, but not really unless I do.
Anyway, people don't seem to listen to me. Even with my family, there's times I feel less than, you know.
They sometimes don't take me seriously.
And I don't think I was prepared well enough by my parents to live in this world. And I'm 50 now. No one ever taught me how to get gas. I do when have to, but feel so unsure of myself.
I've only worked jobs where a family member worked. I have no confidence. Other physical problems maybe even if I had a job. I do drive with my husband transporting vehicles, but he leads and I follow.
My son and daughter live here with us now, they'll listen sometimes, but can't seem to hear me even though she says she has good hearing.
I feel unsure around her, she's demonstrative and out there, I'm not. Don't want to offend, but she almost takes over things in my home.
When husband's home, before son and daughter-in-law here, we'd always end up arguing, stupid stuff. So many times over the years, I haven't felt like others take me seriously.
Have gotten down on myself, and wondered what's the use in it all, living and everything.
Just don't seem to fit and it hurts and I need friends and fun, and I'm sick of where I am in life right now. Have been more so during my monthly time. But still it's more than that.
Can't seem to feel sure of me and my actions.
Maybe this should be in the self esteem section, probably. Anyway, maybe someone can identify here also.
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