make of it what you want I'm gonna do exactly that because I really need to and this is just pretty much way out there for me cos I'm always tryin' to please people and ...we both know where that goes!

I don't care what I'm doing!

I don't care what I'm not doing!

I really don't care what I'm expected to be doing especially what I'm expected to be caring about what I'm doing...like what??!

someone knows more about me like they know better what makes that **** happen?

why?...cos they?...stuff it!

it's my time now forever invalidated I have meant nothing for so long I only know what others mean and ...damn it it's killing me over and over just so they stay intact I disintegrate?

MADNESS

jam you're own crap...I never had any...but I sure got some now...and what do I do with it?

...thats the bpd mystery hey?...to internalise!

but anyway...more like 'now no-way!'

I have incredible feelings...I just don't know how to access them..

without destroying myself

so thats just what I don't care about....myself...

...which is convenient for the purpose...cos I don't know me anyway

so I can destroy what I don't know to "feel" somethin' I need to know!

(no insects...penguins or unintentional humans were harmed during this post)

idiot DM