I feel that way, SweetCrusader. I assume other people will judge my experiences as insignificant in comparison to theirs...but that's because that's what I do to myself. I think my experiences are insignificant in comparison to others. Or that I have more to be ashamed of.

I haven't suffered from physical abuse. I think I've suffered from verbal and mental abuse at different times (but sometimes I'm not even sure of that - maybe I was useless, clumsy, stupid and had no common sense as a kid! I don't know.)

I'm ashamed to post much about my feelings about my son who was sexually abused by my ex-husband (now deceased). I have a lot of guilt. Why didn't I know? Why didn't I clue in? I look back now and there were signs - I MISSED!!! I failed him. He was hurting then...he hurts now and he is a grown man. I failed as a mother. Happy Mother's Day to me. How can my experiences bring anything but pain to anyone whose parents also failed them? How can my pain ever compare to theirs?

Yeah, I think I'm a weak person if I make a big deal out of my experiences.


<font color=green>Once in a while it really hits people that they don't have to experience the world in the way they have been told to.</font color=green> --Alan Keightley