(((((((((((((((((((((Christina)))))))))))))))) You are not bad and have helped many people here. Now it is time to heal yourself. Two months is an accomplishment. Please try and see how strong you are to have done that. I know right now you can't see all of the good and kindness in you. Just try and see that there are many out here who care for you and hope you find the strength to continue SI free. Know I am one of them. Take care.