Purple,

Its not mean. You are not a terrible person. I don't blame you for not wanting to start up a group.. Good grief BP already takes up alot of space in our lives. Few people know I am Bipolar. I am not ashamed, I don't really give a rats ***. to be honest. If someone found out "yay" if they don't "yay". I feel no need to shout it from the roof tops.

My 2 cents is this... You have been struggling for a long time now. Its time to break down and go pay the damn Pdoc and get on some other meds and explain in very blunt easy to understand language to the Pdoc you have no insurance and ask him if he can help you out doing some over the phone med adjustments and finding medications that you can afford.... Please hang in there... Things will improve.. THEY WILL.

** Hugs**