Hello everyone! Its been almost over 3 years since I posted this. Im 18 now and will be 19 in May, I almost feel ashamed to say it and admit it, but Im still dragging my feet about this situation with my sister and her decisions. I haven't seen her in years and sadly I was ok with that because I didn't wanna get close and get hurt by her again. She's been in and out of prison since then. Shes currently on probation but it ends next month, My parents told me her and her new husband are coming to live WITH us next month.

My world is spinning and im not ready for all of this. Ive been sweeping under the rug for years and im slowly unraveling and having a really hard time getting a grip on all of this. I used to cut as a 15 year old when I first joined but thankfully, I haven't since then. I have taken pills for no reason, just hoping for something to fix me and fill the feelings I have within me. I need to rely on God and know that He has a plan and that everything is going to be ok. Just gotta keep telling my self that and move forward. Prayers please?