Omg hamster I'm feeding my new born when I realized I lost a lot. I could never ever have my mind empty of thought before topamax, I always had a voice in my head, most of the time more than one voice. I never knew peace of mind before topamax but that thing did slow down my process of thinking. I was so fast making connections and associations. I guess it was kind of a good turn not to have as many voices in my head, it don't mind either that it doesn't take me hours of thinking before I can go to knockout sleep.. But I'm scared now of losing any more of myself.. Not scared, concerned..