Thanks Elliemay! That was how I felt and it did really hurt. Even better, she wanted me to record my sessions, because she thought I was misinterpreting things she said, I think. So I have that particular statement recorded too. She was serious. It was in reference to why she forgot to call me after she'd said she would, the one and only time I'd asked for a phone call in between my sessions in the four years I've seen her. I really, really wasn't okay (because of our huge rupture actually). She forgot because her own life stuff got in the way and she was busy dealing with that and the next day she left the city for a few days. So that's what it was about. She's actually very caring, so it's hard to know what she fully meant by some of the things she's said recently.