T agreed to walk me through one of the CT exercises & write down my responses.

I must say, the articles on coherence therapy don't mention how painful it is to speak out loud, out of the middle of the damaged emotional state that is causing the symptom, the emotions that one feels. It was grueling. I saw T wipe tears from her eyes - twice - that's a first, ever, ever.

we got through it and she read from the exercise, what have you learned? and I couldn't come up with a thing.
The exercise said you should take home the responses and look at them over the next week or two, but T didn't volunteer to hand them over. She said, This was so terribly painful. I said, But pain is OK, T, if it gets me where I need to go. When I asked her should I not take the notes home to think about, she said, Don't do it. I think this has done more harm than good.

I said, well, I guess I didn't do it right. And in classic CBT fashion, she growled at me and told me to rephrase that - so I said, OK I guess coherence therapy isn't for everyone. She said, that's better.