work today is an impending doom.
I feel desperate to get out of it....
It's stupid I know...
but I can't be that person today...
not today....

I need time to be me

and it's not me at work

it's who I have to be...
who I need to be....
not the real me....
the real me is scared and hiding...
i don't know why...
but he is...
and now I have to be that someone else again...
and I can't do it today.....
the closeer it gets to the time to go....
the more desperate I feel....