I have been a closet M to F crossdresser for most my life (only really close female friends know, I am married wife knows, someone supports to a degree, kids, 3 of them have no idea). I get these really strong feminine feelings sometimes they want to totally take over the way I feel. I work in a profession that I can not just do what I feel or want. I wear panties full time. From time to time I wear pantyhose to help supress the feelings but that doesn't help anymore. I feel I am bi sexual and I have thought extensively about Gender reassignment surgery and although breasts would be nice that would be as far as I would go. I have talked to my wife about the feelings and she is unsure what to do to help. I have talked with her about me shaving my body (would really like to) she is apposed to the idea. I would like to find something I can do to help at work and in daily lilfe to help me feel more "fem" without coming out to all and ruining my "life". Can someone please help me.