Being lost is a constant theme for me, I thank all those who participated on this thread. Things have been a bit better. I gave up on the weight loss and put it on the back burner. Being sick and under so much stress has gave me a new reason to be depressed. But this comes and goes as all people with bipolar know. It is just so hard to stay balanced. I feel so unbalanced so mismatched. That is the best way to describe it.