My cat has been slightly sick for the last week. If she does not soon start to eat we will have to put her down. I can't stand the sorry and loss I feel whenever I think about being without her. All I want to do is cry. Finally I started taking some 4 year old Xanax that my pdoc gave me for a some things that were happeningg a while ago. It has made me feel more relaxed. I don't cry anymore and I can enjoy the tiime I have left with my kitty.

I feel so weak because I have to rely on meds to get through. My husband is a rock. You can tell he is sad but he is getting on with his life and caring for our little girl like a trouper. Why can't I be more like him? What is wrong with me?