I was suffering for 35 yrs. before I got the correct diagnosis & treatment so there is HOPE. I did the suicide attempts, too, but I now know that I can have a good quality of life. My mother committed suicide when I was 15 & I was actually relieved that she was out of her misery & pain. She wasn't able to be helped, but today I think with the new medications & treatments she would have been able to get relief. So I understand your thoughts from both perspectives.