Bless your heart ~ Your dear kitty is like a member of the FAMILY! Don't feel weak because you're losing your precious pet. You are certainly NOT weak! We, who adore our pets, absolutely fall apart when we lose our pets. There are those who just don't understand how close we get to our wonderful animals, and I don't understand THEM -- but pets are precious additions to families, and when they pass on, it devastates us!!
We lost our dog last year, and it just made us all basket cases. He was 12 years old, and the most precious dog in the world -- to US. We weren't "weak" for loving him, and YOU are not weak either for loving your dear cat!
So know that my heart goes out to you. I know exactly how you feel. And I'm so very sorry.
I'm just going to give you one word of warning tho -- be very careful with the Xanax, because it doesn't take long to become addicted to it. It's supposed to be for SHORT TERM use only!!! I got addicted to it quickly and it's VERY hard to get off of. So be very careful my friend. God bless you, and please keep me posted on how you're doing, will you please? I DO care. Hugs, Lee