(((jadzea)))

I don't think of you as a weakling at all! You love your cat dearly and it is heartbreaking to see one that you love hurting. I loved my cats and dog with a passion as well ~ and it was very hard seeing them deteriorate. They will always hold a very special place in my heart though. Don't think of yourself as being strange that you're overcome with sorrow and fear as you see your loved one/s suffering. You are human!

I do agree with Leed about being careful with the Xanax. A better option might be to see your doctor and get prescribed to a safer medication to help relieve your anxiety. Some meds are much easier to stop when you're ready, than others. Gentle hugs to you and your kitty.