I APPLAUD you for this! You have a determination and drive that most of us with depression cannot find and are facing a situation that most of us would run from! Good for you! There is NO excuse for her or your friends behavior. However, I feel that she may have been at the end of her hope and what started out as friendly discussions among two people who know and care about you, got carried away. And while doing what she knew was wrong she found in her heart that your relationship still matters. Otherwise she may have not been honest with you. Maybe she felt that if she was honest about this and you didn't get angry like before, then you were making progress in your therapy and she now understands how hard you are willing to work. BUT she has work to do too. I hope that the two of you will be able to nurture your relationship and it will be as strong as ever or stronger! It is going to take time. You didn't change over night. Her feelings for you didn't change over night. I pray that you both allow a reasonable amount of time for things to get better. Now that you are feeling better about yourself and dealing with your depression, it will reflect in other areas of your life. I hope she understands what she has in you. I don't know you or her, but any man who puts so much out there for strangers to read, has something special to give the ones he loves! Wishing you many years of wedded bliss and strength!