Um, WOW. This quote is very strange! "You leave me with two choices, to force you to do it, or not do it and I don't want to have to be your parent or teacher, so I will close the book".

I can well imagine that you would have heard that as saying you were too far gone for help! How very, very weird. I mean.....It's a good thing that he doesn't want to be your parent or teacher, because those roles are both WRONG for a therapist. But gee, what does it MEAN? Did the conversation go any further after that? Did he explain himself? Were you able to hear anything else he said?

I think if I were in your shoes (thinking back to when I was beginning in therapy at just a couple years older than you are now), I would have felt very hopeless and not heard, indeed. Yowza. If I could reach back to that young, very much suffering person I was and change anything, it would be to confront the therapist and let him know that he was not being helpful, that all I heard from him was condemnation, and WTF was he trying to DO to me anyway?!? Oy, does this bring back the memories.

I have this mental image of a mechanic taking tools out of his toolbox and throwing them at a car to fix it!

There are a lot of different medications, and I'd like to invite you to consider trying some others. Prozac is in one specific category, so perhaps you might respond better to an antidepressant from a different category, or even a newer medication from the same category.

It is terribly hard to be in this place where trial and error comes out more on the side of error. Please don't stop trying. Keep fighting. It *is* worth it. That feeling/voice/belief that nothing is worth it....is the disease speaking. We *all* know what it's like. The fact that you have posted again, and that you care to get up and go to work....That's wonderful. You are fighting for your life and that is a good thing.