Crying in front of others other then my husband does not happen often. I sometimes panic attack when I cry. So I worry about becoming out of control.. And other things.

I have never allowed myself to cry in front of him. I get teared up sometimes and a few tears have fallen. I get so anxious when I feel I might cry that I feel a need to turn my body and face completely around in the chair. He does not like this. Crying does not feel safe for me.

I think having me cry is one of his goals. I wish I could too. I'm just not there yet.

We do hug. At the end of every session. He stands up, opens his arms and gives me a goofy smile. He's very tall. I put my head on his shoulder and he holds me for a few brief seconds. He's also touched my self harm scars once. That was very healing!

I'm not sure if he would comfort me. When I get teared up he tells me it's okay to cry, then I feel myself snap myself out of it and dissociate.