Hi all. I wanted to ask how would you react if you couldn't hold down a job and had a hard time functioning and your spouse couldn't understand ? I just lost my 8th job in the past three years and my husband is very upset. I understand his feelings but I feel like he doesn't understand what I'm struggling with too. I've started to feel that maybe I'm just a bad, lazy person and just taking advantage of him. Although I've had 8 jobs in the past few years its because I keep trying, I want to help him and take some stress off of him, I'd like to accomplish something in my life too. But everytime I try, I fail because I can't get motivated, I can't cope with adhering to their schedule. Most days I don't even want to shower or leave the house. I hate myself and feel so guilty but I haven't been able to change it. What would you do if your husband kept forcing you to get a job even if you knew the same cycle would continue ? What would you do if you knew your husband could never fully love you or be happy with you until you did the things "normal" women do ? I've tried meds before but it didn't help either. Financially we can't afford therapy etc, but I'm gonna go back to the state facility soon to try again.