I don't normally post over here, so I apologize for not being able to offer much support myself... But lately, I've been really struggling. It feels like I'll have a really good week, where I get up every day and I feel like I have energy and can be productive. And then, I don't know, something happens... And it all switches, and I go back to sleeping all the time.

I'm taking meds. Well, I haven't taken them for a week, but I have my pdoc on Wednesday. I'm not convinced my meds were working. I don't really like who I am on the meds and I don't really like who I am off the meds either. My T is on leave until Feb. 1st or thereabouts. I'm thinking about starting a group until she comes back, but at the same time, I'm a little worried because I"m supposed to start my new semester next week, and I don't want to overwhelm myself with too many things to do.

I'm mostly just sick of the switching back and forth. It's like I can't trust myself to be consistent, and it's killing me. Last night, I kept saying this week will be better. This week will be a good week. I made muffins last night, and did laundry and homework. I mean, what week can go bad when it starts off with muffins, right? But I slept all day today, and I'm angry with myself. Which I also realize isn't helping at all. I'm just frustrated and tired of trying to figure out how to give myself that kick in the pants I need to get moving every day.

I guess I just needed to vent a little, and feel heard by others that understand what i"m going through.