Yes all the time.

My BPD has been a lot better since getting rid of my trigger,
And I'm now in a new relationship. And I'm happy.
But paranoia is trying to suck me in. Keep telling me that the person is using me. It won't last. I'm not good enough for this person!!

It's wrong I do deserve happiness. And I have no reason to believe this man is no good. His treated me with nothing but respect.

So yes there is always a battle with emotions.

What I find the hardest is the emptiness...
It's like my head is happy but my soul is sad, and sometimes they switch!!
It's very tiring.
Hope this helped