Before I say more, I just want to say that I am NOT about to commit suicide.

At times these visions take me over completely and gets to much and I have no escape. Is there something as emotional suicide? I haven't been able to cry for a long time... I am so confused. I'm stuck in a rut and I don't know how to get out. Not even in my sleep can I find some peace. The higher the high, the lower the low... How can I make this feeling stop?