I hear ya blue! I get it. I wish I looked at your post and scratched my head and felt left out... but no... I get it lol.

yes there are mood shifts, and depression and hypo if not full blown mania.

yes... but there is always something else...
like it's waiting....
watching...
and it comes out on it's own...

it's not a mood shift. it's not hypo. it's not really depression...

it's like chaos. it's desperation. it's really really active!

desperate sadness mixed with repulsive emotions.

that's how I would put it!