So lately I've really screwed up my sleeping habits. End up staying up til way too early in the morning, getting way less sleep than I should... I know I'll be tired all day.

So anyway early in the morning I'm thinking way too much. So many thoughts going through my head about all the stuff I'm Effing up in my life right now. This feeling comes and goes it's a vicious cycle. For awhile I'll be happy with things, think I'm doing fine, handling things, taking care of the kids and all that stuff. By pure logic, I think I am doing alright considering the hardships I've faced in the past year. What with the divorce impending soon, the separation, the financial burdens, taking on single parenting, pretty much full time, etc. But no.

I felt like such a loser thinking about it all last night. Things as trivial as letting the dishes pile up too much bothered me. I thought about how I know I need to do better with housekeeping. Then onto thinking about what a crappy dad I really must be... how irresponsible I am, etc. it's so farking tiring it's not even funny. back and forth ya know?

eh this is just a rant. Sorry for taking up your time :/

Thanks for reading.