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Originally Posted by Antimatter
I am afraid that it isnt okay to feel this way, so I am trying not to do so.
I am thinking that it is not okay to allow T to help me feel relief.
Because.then I am depending on him to ease my pain, and I am afraid to give him that much power over me.
I am afraid to call him instead of dealing with it myself because what if.he is.too busy? What if he cant.fit me in?
Then I will be dealing with my original pain and dealing with him leaving me with all of.this.
Or finding how insidious I really am and terminating me.
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Well, you do feel this way and because you are in therapy, you are going to have issues. Fighting where we are and how we are feeling makes the work twice as hard.
AMatter, you are okay right where you are. I know it is hard but it is okay to have issues.
Your T is a good T and he will work with you through this. I understand how the issues with the last T are making you worry. This sounds pretty normal. We are influenced by what has happened to us.