when I get that way, it's not like I am in crisis mode. It's just something that I have to be more aware of. it passes.

I guess I have this idea that to go inpatient someone has to be in such a crisis that they are kicking and screaming while the doctors are dragging them into the hospital lol.......

i have no idea how it really goes.

counting pills and writing letters dont' seem like much of a big deal of me. at least not to me.