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Originally Posted by Bamboo_RedPanda
Does it sometimes feel like multiple parts of yourself are fighting with each other? Like you want to be happy, or something is starting to make you feel happy or excited, and then some other part comes in and calls you stupid, idiotic, self-centered, so on? Or that you may get very defensive, but again another part is telling you to be a different way?
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Absolutely. Every day, all day long. I'm constantly fighting myself, constantly second guessing myself. When I'm happy, I'm always waiting for the other shoe to drop. When I start feeling confident about something, I always think that something will happen and I'll f*** it all up.
When I'm feeling depressed, there's a huge tug of war with myself about getting help or whether I deserve to be tortured.