I used to have a plan like that. The plan had a "cataclysmic trigger" type of thing. Event A had to happen for it to be put in motion. It's faded out now that I've overcome my suicidal thinking quite a bit. But, it's still in there and I remember it, but I no longer feel I might need it, even if that event happens.

I assume the same will be for you as you move toward wellness.