Most definitely. I am at war with myself all of the time. I have actually even told my T that it is not like I have multiple people inside or anything, it's just I conflict with myself and contradict myself so much it is tiresome.

I wish the outside would match the inside. I get so mad at myself sometimes. Or maybe the inside match the outside, I don't know. I hate myself a lot. And when I don't hate myself, I don't feel like I deserve that happiness. Yes, cause when good things happen to me, I somehow manage to ruin it all without even trying.

to you, if ok. I so GET everyone's answers in this thread.