Thank you bp, kimmy, oneandmany and petunia. I feel really bad about being so hasty...

What is so strange to me is that my dreams have to do with another form of abuse, nothing that I had experienced... It's just that I feel violated on such a different level... it's like my abuser got into my mind and is tormenting me there. The more I think about it, the more I'm sure it's not real...

Thanks for the link petunia, I'll go check it out.

Oh, and thanks for being so gentle and understanding kimmy....