So I am going to pose this question to you all. Does it sometimes feel like multiple parts of yourself are fighting with each other? Like you want to be happy, or something is starting to make you feel happy or excited, and then some other part comes in and calls you stupid, idiotic, self-centered, so on? Or that you may get very defensive, but again another part is telling you to be a different way?

Maybe it sounds weird. I know there aren't multiple me, but it's almost like there are, and every part is fighting with each other. I just get so frustrated with it all, and eventually I shut down. Tell myself to be quiet completely and I numb my mind out, not allowing it to think.

Just know, I'm not diagnosed with bpd......... or anything actually, but I'm trying to figure it out, however i'm just constantly fighting with myself instead of solving anything.

If you have questions for me as well, please feel absolutely free to ask.

Thank you.

P.S., the emptiness of my profile is sort of a result of my fighting with myself. I just ended up removing all my friends and clearing out my entire profile........ I'm so tired of doing this that I just stopped putting stuff up.