update on the great fight,not going too well,but I still believe it's in me to beat this,but how I feel now is not good.I guess all of our problems are when we get so little sleep,that seems to give the demons their best playground to work.I understand that and usually can use it as a block,but have had so many ups lately,caught up and this last so called manic wasnt manic,just the bloody sleep went haywire for about 2 weeks,felt ok then but now the usual story the down side is the bit*h.If I was all the time type 1 I don't think I could do this without meds,but as hard as it is I'm going to try a bit longer without the meds,if I dont have the ups I can't achieve at making a better life for us,(starting a business with my designs,art).I don't want to give in to the demons,and will continue to fight hard,not easy as we all know.BUT I will soon go and get some help here in Aussie.