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Originally Posted by Maranara
If you believe there's a chance you're BPD, do the research both on and off this site. Many, many of us were self-diagnosed before actually having it confirmed by a therapist. If the traits fit and it just seems right you probably are. That doesn't mean not to find out for sure, but you could be ahead of the game and work on helping yourself in the meantime.
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The thing is, I've researched it for a long time, but any time I think "Oh, it seems really possible" here comes my mind saying "you're just being a self-centered idiot." I've seen two therapists, since it was free at the school I was going to, but I ran off each time thinking I was wasting their time, that nothing was wrong with me and I just needed to get over myself.
My "friend" (sometimes I'm iffy about calling her that) read the description for it and said it sounded just like me, but yet again my brain is saying I'm being an idiot because I've never been in a true relationship, and when I barely was it wasn't intense (now I've just given up completely on them and I'm only 20), and that I don't have self-harm or suicidal behavior. It just always makes excuses against the possibility.
So I'm sort of just stuck.
If you have any questions you can ask, I don't mind it.