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Originally Posted by Bamboo_RedPanda
The thing is, I've researched it for a long time, but any time I think "Oh, it seems really possible" here comes my mind saying "you're just being a self-centered idiot." I've seen two therapists, since it was free at the school I was going to, but I ran off each time thinking I was wasting their time, that nothing was wrong with me and I just needed to get over myself.
My "friend" (sometimes I'm iffy about calling her that) read the description for it and said it sounded just like me, but yet again my brain is saying I'm being an idiot because I've never been in a true relationship, and when I barely was it wasn't intense (now I've just given up completely on them and I'm only 20), and that I don't have self-harm or suicidal behavior. It just always makes excuses against the possibility.
So I'm sort of just stuck.
If you have any questions you can ask, I don't mind it.
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Every single one of us without many exceptions have gone through periods like that. When I first heard the traits everything clicked in place but at the same time my mind screamed out "NO"!! Hang out with us, read threads, ask questions when you come across something you don't get and we'll help you figure it out. I found out about BPD last February, almost a year ago, was in total denial for several months, and came across PC in July. Within a month or so of talking to people and talking to others going through the exact same thing there was no way I could deny it any longer. I was officially diagnosed just a few weeks ago.