Hi Roman ~ I'm so sorry you're struggling. It sounds like your meds aren't working, like you said. But you STILL should be taking them daily as prescribed. How long have you been on them? If it hasn't been very long, it's possible they haven't had a change to start working. Some meds take awhile to even START working. It depends on the medication. There are some that can take up to 6 weeks to even BEGIN to work -- so people think that they aren't going to work and they quit taking them.

Doctors don't tell them that they have to wait 6 weeks.

So yours might be one of them. Keep taking them.
If you've had them longer than that, tell your doc that they aren't working and you need a change. I'm sure he'll change to something else. But keep talking to us. You're in the right place. We'll be here to listen. Depression is a horrible disease, and it effects every aspect of your life. Plus it effects everyone around you too. So hang on. We've got your back until your pdoc gets back. God bless & take care. Hugs, Lee