blue,

i actually used to think that as well.

everyone, at some stage in their life, felt suicidal. mentally ill or not.. i always used to think that if things got too stressfull for them, they'd think about it.

as for the suicidal scale, through my teen years i was about an 8 or a 9, and now i'm down to about a 6 or something.

dan.. their's nothing wrong with you doing this sorta thing at all, if it helps i'm always talking to myself in the dark... it does help