thanks mandy.

one thing that sucks though that has been tripping with me. the cop was asking me did i want to see somebody (like meaning a shrink or whatnot) and i said, "if things get out of hand i will see somebody" and he asks what i mean by that and i said, "you know, if i'm not in control." then he asks me, "how would you know if you were not in control?" and you know what? i could not answer him. i'm sure if i think about it long enough i'll come up with the answer, but at that moment, i really had no idea what to say. cuz i just didn't know.