Usually, I come to this forum looking for ways to help other people understand their pain. Tonight, its my soul that feels ripped up. Generally, I stay away from music becuase it tends to start a cycle of bad thoughts. Instead of staying away, the other night, I looked up Eddie Money's "cant go back" and listened to it. Big mistake. I can't stop going back and listening to it.

Although there is always depression, I've learned to manage it to an extent, and I never ever should have listened. I'm not suicidal, I wouldn't put it down if I were. I know that life is a learning process, good and bad, and truth be told, the past wasn't that great, but now I'm stuck. I doubt anyone much younger than I is going to get the full effect, no offense to the younger crowd. Tonight I sit here wondering what if, what if I hadn't done this or had done that. I think people will know what I'm talking about.

The knowledge that so many things were taken for granted, that it seemed like there was always plenty of time is something that hits us all at sometime in our lives.

For people still in high school, twenties or thirties, don't take anything for granted. Once its gone, its gone. There isn't all the time in the world.

Anyway, until the cycle stops, I guess the song is going to get a lot of play. Amazing how powerful music can be.

Sam2