I agree with Blue Mountains on this. She is right about having a hospital stay for several days to calm things for you and to have your meds re-evaluated for correcting the chemical imbalance. That's what the problem is and all you need to do is place yourself in a hospital so that can be done.

You'll be fine just as soon as you take action.

You're far more valuable to your children and your husband than you know. And they need you, whether you believe that right now or not. So please, please take
action and get to the hospital on your own if necessary.

Out of kindness, though, ask your husband to escort you and explain to the children that you'll be back in several days. They will accept you with loving arms. Just
wait and see.

Good wishes in your recovery soon.