Basically an accident in the first place, my face and body are physically unappealing and my mind is ugly. Scarred with depression from over a decade of being outcasted by everyone. I was always the kid that got picked on, always made fun of, I would try to be "cool" but to no avail.

Never had a decent conversation with a women, never had a girlfriend, have no sense of flirtiness, my social anxiety keeps me in my room no lifing video games. I don't even know if I fear intimacy because I've never had the chance to get to that point, but running situations in my head I feel like I would be afraid of contact.

I like to lift weights and play basketball, but you could only do that so much. Right now I have a badly pinched muscle in my back from basketball, so I can't even enjoy the things that I love doing.

They say "Keep doing you and the women will come." Lol ok, I'll keep doing what I do but when I'm 40 ill probably be in the same situation I am in now, crippled and depressed without any partner and probably without any experience with women.

Why was I put on this earth to just be a barnacle on the side of a ship.